My artwork is copyright ©CameDorea. You have NO RIGHT to use it, edit it, copy it or post it somewhere, not even the right to use a part of it !! All the rights belong to ME !! So if you want to use one of my pic you must ask me and have my written expressed permission !!
That's it. Thanks.


I DON'T take any art request. But you want an art from me ? That's OK !! You can get one here =3 :
COMMISSIONS [link]



First of all :
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY BELOVED DEVIANT FRIENDS !!!!!!!! I wish you all the best, because you deserve it , I hope your wishes will come true and I wish you healthy and happy ^3^
Love you !!

Then, no I'm not dead, even though I wonder if my time will come soon . Well, you probably know me very well, my absences are common things now If I could be here, I assure you that I would be here , you know you're in my heart and that I love the dA community . Unfortunately I barely have a life right now . I'm trapped between my university (damn competitive examination, damn work, damn lack of motivation, damn damn damn you all !!) and many personal problems I won't talk about here for now because I don't want to bother you and I don't want pity .

So yes, I'm so very sorry, I feel horribly guilty for not being able to keep in touch with you all. But I hope you know I always return sooner or later, I WON'T abandon you
So please bear with my absences a little bit longer, I always keep an eye on your gorgeous drawings and I promise I have a lot of stuff I will post (drawing keep me sane) and that I have a lot of crazy talk to do with you my dear friends haha
I send you much love !!!! ^3^






Thank you guys for your kind words and your support, it motivates me so much


.:: Oh and you can check my videos on animemusicvideos.org
Yes I love AMVs and I made some AMVs myself. You just need to be subscribed at amv.org (that's free) and go check my profile => [link]

_________


My friends and my talented friends on dA :

(update soon ^^)

Other wonderful artists I love :

(update soon ^^)


Clubs I'm proudly in :

All my pictures are copyright ©CameDorea. You have NO RIGHT to use them, edit them, copy them or post them somewhere, not even the right to use a part of them !! Understood ? All the rights belong to ME !! So if you want to use one of my pic you must ask me and have my written expressed permission !!
That's it. Thanks.


I DON'T take art requests. But you want an art from me ? That's OK !! You can get one here =3 :
COMMISSIONS [link]



EDIT

It's my second birthday on dA today !! OMG already two years of dA, of wonderful artists/friends and passion *_____*. It just seems to be yesterday for me, I remember I was sooo hesitant about coming to dA. But thanks to you all, I'm a little more confident now and I'm glad to share my work with you guys. Thank you to all the people who always support me, it means a lot to me

22 222k Kiriban progress :

END OF EDIT

Thank you + New start

First of all, I want to thank all the people that encouraged me in my last journal entry , your support was really appreciated, it touched me very much, you helped me to be positive which is so important after a failure !! Thank you so much my dA friends, you're wonderful

Yay I'm back !! Gah those vacations were way too short !! Time passes by so damn fast ! But I reassure you, they were great and funny, I spent great times and it made me feel better too !! I laughed my ass off and refreshed myself so much, that's really what I needed. Now I'm back and cool, I have to learn from my failure and turn it into an experience. I know I can't give up now. I'm not the first one to fail, I won't be the last. I have to fight in order to bear no regrets. I know it will be another hard year, and it's such a pain in the ass. But I've made up my mind, I already registered myself once again on the long list of students who will try their best to succeed on the next competitve examinations in 2009. Wish me luck, I'm still a little down when I think I have to start all over again, but I decided I'll do it no matter what.

For now, I enjoy as much as I can the free time I have till mid-September. Drawing, drooling on art from dA, reading, playing PS2 and sleeping are my top priorities
My dear =Syrae-Universe, sorry for keeping you waiting, now I'm back and kicking ass, I can begin your kiriban at last mwahahaha >8D



TAG

I've been TAGGED by

Rules:
1. tag 10 people (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all tags on their profile that they have been tagged,and link to your journal.


[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily. (no I buuuurn D8)
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free (Who wouldn't?)
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.


Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home. (I thought about it one time)
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation. (almost !! XD)
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[x] I've had measles.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. (but I was not the one who drove haha )
[x] I've been on a plane
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. (I thought I did at that time >_> )
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed. (not really but I’m not very friendly when I’m depressed)
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something i got from e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar. (a little ? XD)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic. (certainly not >_< )
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun. (a false on yeah )
[x] I am in love with love. (yeaaah ~)
[ ] I am guilty of typing lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even if its on away messange. (computer always online, but not always me haha =3)
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games. (proud of iiiit >8D)
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

Those who want to do this tag, feel free to do so and tell me






Thank you guys for your kind words and your support, it motivates me so much


.:: Oh and you can check my videos on animemusicvideos.org
Yes I love AMVs and I made some AMVs myself. You just need to be subscribed at amv.org (that's free) and go check my profil => [link]

_________


My friends and my talented friends on dA :

(update soon ^^)

Other wonderful artists I love :

(update soon ^^)


Clubs I'm proudly in :

All my pictures are copyright ©CameDorea. You have NO RIGHT to use them, edit them, copy them or post them somewhere, not even the right to use a part of them !! Understood ? All the rights belong to ME !! So if you want to use one of my pic you must ask me and have my written expressed permission !!
That's it. Thanks.


I DON'T take art requests. But you want an art from me ? That's OK !! You can get one here =3 :
COMMISSIONS [link]



Competitive examinations, the end...

As you may know, I finished my competitive examinations and also my hard student year on July, 7th... I thought this was the end of the suffering... I had a very harsh year, with a lot of stress, pressure, work, I almost became mad... So I thought I was going to be rewarded for all the work and madness I had to bear... I thought I was finally going to get the diploma and have a safe future... I believed it so much !
And I was so wrong... The results were on July, 15th... I failed... Yes... I miserably failed... All what I've done was for nothing in the end... I wasted an entire year of my life to suffer even more now... I'm depressed, I'm hopeless, I don't know what to do anymore, I don't want to do anything actually, I just can't go on like this...
I can start the year all over again and try the competitive examinations next year... But I'm so tired right now... I just can't imagine living another year like this one... But do I really have the choice ? I have no other way to prepare my future... I wanna be an English teacher and being able to draw during my free time, I don't have any other project in... my DAMN life !!



Have to think about something else

So yeah, I know I won't be able to start all over again in september if I stay in my current state of mind. I have to refresh myself, I have to think about anything else, to do what I couldn't do this year, to have fun, to see friends, to laugh, to think about the sun and the delicious things I can do of all my free time.
So even though I failed, I still go on vacations. I will be able to see my dA messages, and I'm glad because I love you and I want to be with you too , but I won't be able to post any drawing. I'm on vacations till August the 3rd just for you to know . I'll draw as much as I want after that, I promise (your kiriban first my dear =Syrae-Universe of course !!) But before I can, I really need to go away from my current state. So, see you soon my dear dA friends !



dA is playing tricks D8

I want you to know that dA won't let me see all your replies, so I'm sorry, really sorry if I don't reply to your messages, it's because I don't know I have messages ! It's much panic, I wanna see all your lovely messages gah !! Damn dA !! I hope they'll fix the problem soon !






Thank you guys for your kind words and your support, it motivates me so much


.:: Oh and you can check my videos on animemusicvideos.org
Yes I love AMVs and I made some AMVs myself. You just need to be subscribed at amv.org (that's free) and go check my profil => [link]

_________


My friends and my talented friends on dA :

(update soon ^^)

Other wonderful artists I love :

(update soon ^^)


Clubs I'm proudly in :

All my pictures are copyright ©CameDorea. You have NO RIGHT to use them, edit them, copy them or post them somewhere, not even the right to use a part of them !! Understood ? All the rights belong to ME !! So if you want to use one of my pic you must ask me and have my written expressed permission !!
That's it. Thanks.


I DON'T take art requests. But you want an art from me ? That's OK !! You can get one here =3 :
COMMISSIONS [link]



What the... OMG dA v6 ??!!
GAH WHERE'S MY STUFF ?? What with the messages ?? O.O;;. Oh my... Everything's changed !! I'm a bit confused right now, I don't recognize anything, it'll take a while for me to become used to the new stuff , in particular my message center argl . Yes I know, I'm too attached to my old habits .
Anyway, you don't care about that . As some of you may know, I'm free from examinations at laaaaaaaast . I'm sorry I didn't take time to tell you before but I was... exhausted !! Oh my... there's no other word, all I wanted to do these last few days was to sleeeeeeeep . Too much work and pressure, I have to recover now . Actually, I barely realize I'm free, I worked so much this year, I still have the impression I have to go on working . I think I'll be able to realize once the results are available.
Cross fingers once again my dears, the results will be available this tuesday, and I'm so scared !! I think one of the examinations went wrong and I can't rejoice from the good work I made on the other ones . I just can't start all over again next year, I won't stand it , so I have to pass now !! Please please pleaaaaase .

Some other news, don't worry my dear, now I can work on your kiriban bwahahaha X3, I just ask a little more time in order to complete a pic I drew in May which I can't wait to complete since it's nearly done . I'll do your present pic right after it =3 (probably begin this Sunday ). Haa it's really so good to draw again !! I have plenty of ideas, I'm so happy to take my pen again . I want to complete all my old pics too nyaaa, I promised I'll do them all sooner or later and I'll keep my promise bwahahaha >83
I can read again and play games on my dear PS2, it's been so long . So many things to do that I don't really know where to begin Anyway, I mainly wait for the results for now, my mind will be free (or not ? ) once I know if I pass
Oh and I might be absent by the end of July since I go on vacations for one week and a half with some friends, don't be mad, I couldn't even go to the Japan Expo so I think I deserve a little fun after so much pain
I love you all my dear dA friends, next journal entry very soon X3







Thank you guys for your kind words and your support, it motivates me so much


.:: Oh and you can check my videos on animemusicvideos.org
Yes I love AMVs and I made some AMVs myself. You just need to be subscribed at amv.org (that's free) and go check my profil => [link]

_________


My friends and my talented friends on dA :

(update soon ^^)

Other wonderful artists I love :

(update soon ^^)


Clubs I'm proudly in :

All my pictures are copyright ©CameDorea. You have NO RIGHT to use them, edit them, copy them or post them somewhere, not even the right to use a part of them !! Understood ? All the rights belong to ME !! So if you want to use one of my pic you must ask me and have my written expressed permission !!
That's it. Thanks.


I DON'T take art requests. But you want an art from me ? That's OK !! You can get one here =3 :
COMMISSIONS [link]



Thank you

First of all, I deeply wanna thank all the people who supported me in the previous journal. My loss is very painful and your kind comments warm my heart up Thank you so much for your concern and your support, I love you The pain is still here, but life goes on and as I have to walk my path, Capucine will always remain in my heart, no matter what.



KIRIBAN CAUGHT

EDIT : The 22,222 hits kiriban has been caught by Congratulations to her [link] Just tell me what you want me to draw for you dear and I'll do it . End of EDIT

I'll drew a pic for the winner, whatever he/she wants as long as it is not :

-Hentai or yuri (shonen-ai and light yaoi are okay ).
-Mecha things (note : Ed's automail or Al's armor in Full Metal Alchemist for example are fine though ).
-Landscape or too complicated backgrounds.
-Full anthro charas.



The end ?

As you may know, I'm currently very busy because of my last competitive examinations. My nerves are dead X_x. I just can't take it anymore !! This year was so hard, I can't wait to be free at last !! I wanna draw, I wanna read, I wanna write, I wanna play Assassin's creed, Kingdom Hearts 2 and many more, I wanna sleep, I wanna see my friends, in one word I wanna live again T____T !! Please, cross fingers, my exams are on July 4th, 5th and 6th. (Results on July 15th.)
Until then, I send love to all my lovely dA friends






Thank you guys for your kind words and your support, it motivates me so much


.:: Oh and you can check my videos on animemusicvideos.org
Yes I love AMVs and I made some AMVs myself. You just need to be subscribed at amv.org (that's free) and go check my profil => [link]

_________


My friends and my talented friends on dA :

(update soon ^^)

Other wonderful artists I love :

(update soon ^^)


Clubs I'm proudly in :